I'm X. I'm genderqueer, and a sexual assault survivor. I'm trying to recover. Ex-self harmer Self diagnosed with PTSD, Depression, and anxiety. I've been trying to figure out for a long time if it was okay to self diagnose, and I've come to the conclusion that it is. I would really like to see someone for it, but that's just not an option right now. This is my personal recovery blog. Sensitive questions are welcome. Support is much appreciated. (I'm not actively self-harming but just in case) Please don't send me an ask telling me not to hurt myself, take a look at this.
I freeze up too. Freezing is normal. You get scared and you’re not sure what to do. The brain “flees” the situation by making you freeze, taking away your options. Sometimes it keeps you safer because fighting back could wind up getting you more hurt in the end. Or fighting back could save you. But freezing is a protective response.
I would imagine taking a martial arts/self defense class to the point where you get really confident in the movements could be helpful.
if you ever think my shorts are “too short” i want you to consider the following
- they are called “shorts”
- i look great
I just ran into one of my rapists in public. I was at a fast food place. I saw him walk past me, I was in the car, and I bolted. I drove away but not unsafely. But then, after I took my friend home I coasted back by to see who he was with and stuff and almost got caught. It was a stupid thing to do but I wanted to know if it was any of my ex friends. It wasn’t. I would have so much else to deal with if it was.
Anyway. I’m a little shaken up but it’s not terrible. It’s mostly I’m just still so angry about this.
My work week is over. I need a nap. School work first though.
Buffy Summers (via sunnydale-ca)
do you ever just smell an old perfume, or hear an old song, or pass an old hangout spot and kinda break inside for a couple minutes
Holden Caulfield? Why are you following this blog?
Chuck Palahniuk (via corvidae-and-crossroads)
Sometimes, I am an adult.
So on the advice of my trainer, I’m counting my calories again. Its going well this time. Because I need to make sure I’m eating enough to function at work, and for workouts with my friend, which I enjoy.
So there’s that.
School sucks though.